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I just spent 20 minutes writing a post and it has disappeared. I am not too thrilled. Further proof that I am not at all computer savvy.

Maybe this is God's plan because to be honest I think I was rambling a bit too much anyway.

I do want to say to Teresa that Transformers will never be better than Harry Potter.

Now on a more serious note: I am really hoping that God will burden me more. That I would have an urgency and an intense desire to see the people of Japan come to know God's love. Of course if we didn't have that initial burden we wouldn't be going. But its different... I feel like there should be more from me. That my heart should really wrench when I think about Japan... for now it just makes me happy to go.. and that isn't bad but it doesnt feel right either. I need a new perspective and to come back to knowing His burden. To know what HE wants, what breaks HIS heart... I need to let go so that there is none of me and an abundance of Him. Like in the bible when people would tear their robes from despair or an intense longing for something. I always thougth that was weird but I think I understand it. When you really desire something so badly that you can't do anything but just clench your fists and cry out. I will not be tearing my robes... but I hope for that same passion for God to send a burden down that I can feel His urgency. I know that He desires so much and we are going into a dark place where darkness is real and that the battle is just ahead. Lord - prepare us!!